With special thanks to all my friends and family who have listened relentlessly to my ranting and raving over the past years, and who have encouraged me to pursue my dreams which has helped me to keep my imagination alive, finally telling me:
“For heaven’s sake write a bloody book”
So I bloody well did.
So I bloody well did.
I would like to thank all the individuals I have met who have showed so much compassion, kindness and shared unforgettable quality time together. In respect those who have helped and supported me in my various times of need and desperation, may they indeed be fully blessed in this life and the next.
Love, light, peace.
It will be hopefully available within the next few weeks and would be very grateful if you could promote and pass on the title to as many sources as possible, and more importantly hope you enjoy reading it.
Much appreciated, thank you all.
Gavin
Preview
I started to drift off and think
about the past; a few years ago I had been having what I thought to
be some bad turn of events in life and was feeling a little lost,
dazed and confused, which was probably due to some of the great
French red wine that I had discovered, found comfort in and became
very happy with that year; many a bottle sat listening to my stories
of true happiness and despair without judging me, it was a perfect
relationship for a while, because in a way they were like women: they
had such lovely bodies, perfectly formed, smooth curves, dark
complexion, long neck, and no head…….Hmmmm! I chuckled to myself
with that image in my mind, visualizing a relationship with no
arguments and total satisfaction….yes another great year, let’s
do it again tomorrow my dear, hic!
Well my
imagination never did need much to set it off spinning down some
rabbit hole to appear in another world drinking tea with the mad
hatter himself, so that year was a bit of a blur really with chasing
rabbits down holes and apart from a little work that I was fortunate
to pick up, it all occupied me well enough until something came along
to inspire me further......travelling! Well those first few steps
into a totally different part of the world, culture, strange sounds,
sights, smells, and real banana trees instead of the plastic ones in
the supermarket, real fruit and vegetables that did not taste like
plastic ones in the supermarket! Certainly aroused some dormant
enthusiasm cells and I am eternally grateful to these caring people
for helping me take these first exciting new steps towards the sun
and light again, but maybe the travelling has become just another
vice to substitute the other ones, as I found myself on that
insatiable path of wanting to see more, go further, go higher.
Now I
sit here frozen like a startled rabbit, numb still from the events of
the last 24 hours. I am covered in dust, mud, grime, snot……and
freezing to the core of my being, somewhere behind that glazed
expression is me. I am dazed. I am amazed. I am shocked…
….but very much alive!
I recall the events just one day before replaying various bits of it
in my minds eye; the marathon road trip that lay just a few seconds
ahead of my unknowing as I set off down an uncertain road, a
forbidden road, with the only certainty of being uncertain, and hoped
a ride would come along soon.
That morning I had felt unusually good and positive; there was love
welling up in my heart and I felt as clear as the blue sky above me,
just as cloudless and unhindered by doubt. The distance ahead of me
did not matter I was sure something would happen and that I will get
through here. The feeling was overwhelming and I had to stop just to
feel it, to respect it, to allow it recognition. I gazed peacefully
around me becoming transfixed in the distance, where a huge horizon
of white tipped mountains pierced the heavens. They regarded them
here as sacred mountains and in that moment I could understand why. I
felt them as though they were watching me, their power, and their
wisdom. They looked so beautiful, so close and again I felt as though
I could reach out and touch them. I could have stayed in this place
indefinitely, my mind, my heart so completely surrendered. I felt a
kind of death, but it was beautiful, no fear just surrender and then
being cradled by it. My mind was so still in timelessness there was
no need for anything, no desire, no fight just an incredible feeling
of deep love, respect, honor and of letting go, of faith........I
let it all go and I turned away to follow a road I did not care
where, when or how; I just knew this was the way I was to go and
everything was going to be fine.
